Lock in

Yeap, im all set to go to upm then all of the sudden i cant unlock one of my door keys. Taraaaa, im lock inside! And king will be back at around 6 pm, so im basically cant get out for another 8 hours! Joy! :p

P/s: being a mrs. is awesome! :D

Thousands-th thhought

Is it too late to run away? Or is this the right time?

Hello september 2013

Time flies soooooo fast. I feel like it was just yesterday i got engaged to king, and those dramas. And now, in about 5 more days, i will be his wife. Ya allahhhhhh.. Macam x percaya!

Alhamdulillah, less stress (ermmm, i think..hehehe), but im starting to feel nervous. Excited to be married, sad to think that the fact after this saturday my priority will be my husband and no longer my family.

Me and mak, we were browsing through old pics for vid montage, and everytime i looked at my old pic, i kept telling myself

"Gee, you are about to be married!, wonder how my kids will look like" teeheeee..

Oh, i just had my depo shot this afternoon, and damn it hurts!

Cry baby cry

11 days to my wedding, and i have been practically crying everyday. Gee, thanx marriage, you really do bring out the worst in women!

California king bed

Finally, weeks of furniture hunting, from kjg up until puchong, we finally bought a sofa and bed room set..yippeeeee!

Act, we already set our eyes on this casa leather 3+2 sofa, which i dreamt to customize it into a burgandy coloured sofa, with a reasonable price and stuff, but then king said cats just loveeeee to scratch leathers..saddddd.. T_T

Ah well, among the first furniture for our future home, a L-shape sofa, and a king size bedroom set. :D

12 more days!

letter to 16 years old me

Dear 16 years old me,

 

The moment I write to you this letter is a day before you turn 25, 4th semester of your postgraduate study and 18 days before you becoming a Mrs.

 

What I am about to tell you will freaking pissed you off. Yesterday, Linkin Park came to KL for a tour, and I was offered a free tix, but I did not go. Yes, I F-ing did not go! Go ahead smack the future you with a brick, better yet just kill me already. hehehehe..

 

I mean, seriously I don't know what have got into me. How can I say no for my obsession? my everything? the thing that help me get through ruff times? motivates me? be with me? the thing whose posters were up on my 4 walls for years?

 

*sigh*

 

I am so sorry, dear 16 years old me T_T

 

You have no idea how restless I get, how much I wanted to scream my lungs out and how many times I keep telling myself, STUPID! and now everytime anyone IG-ed (oh, 9 years from your year there will be this thing called instagram..cool huh?) pix of that concert, I could feel my heart got ripped out of me. Again, STUPID!

 

im pretty sure if this opportunity came to me when I was your age, I would never ever hesitate, never! just how I did not hesitate to pierced my bellybutton, up until I took it out for the sake of a stupid ex-boyfie. ok, that was my biggest mistake and this is the second one, ditching a LP concert! Future me, please please please don't be F-ing stupid and add more mistakes! Do what you want to do, this is your life for god sake! Responsibilities can wait...hahahahaha...

 

16 years old me,

 

I really miss you. Seriously. you were so confident, so sure of what you want and the most important thing is you live your life to the fullest. Screw what everyone said and thinks, trying out new stuff and just enjoy every seconds of your life. how I wish I can be you right now. you were awesome girl! =D

 

Oh, thank you so much for not having any boyfie during highschool. because 9 years later, no highschool love birds make it to a marriage and im pretty sure they regretted spending the most awesome years being in monkey love.. *Puke*

 

Scandals and crushes were and still are the best!

 

p/s: all those basketballers that you adore so much just not as hot anymore..teeheeee

 

 

I am sorry as the almost-25-years-old-you did not turn out the way you had always planned. I sort of lost my own self along the way. people say forget yesterday, but little that they know past is the thing that determine what we become in the future. I know you did you best, 16 years old me, its not your fault, present me takes all the blame.

 

I still remember the '16 things I want to do when I turn 16' list, and I think I want to start working on my 30 things to do before I turn 30 list. I know I had sooooo much fun finishing those 16 things..bahahahaha..

 

Lastly, I cant thank you enough for the greatest time I had, dear 16 years old me. You were awesome! =) 

 

 

 

A day without any wedding shit!

Yeah, u read it right. I hereby declare that tomorrow 15/8/2013 is a day without any wedding prep shit!

I can no longer bare the stress, expectation and stuff so tomorrow i'll try my very best to dedicate the day all to myself. Doing what? Havent decided yet, but i want to enjoy myself first.

Thank you stress for making me realize how much i need a time out. :)