I miss you

So today is the 9th or 10th of ramadhan, sorry i lost count. I guess i lost track of everything. I guess i am lost! And it is only about 1 and half month before my wedding, and i am hitting my rock bottom!

*sigh*

People are expecting me to be super duper extremely happy right now. But sorry peeps, the glow just aint there yet.

Seriously, i cant focus, heck i cant do my thesis. But i am pushing my ass off to finish it. At least i have that to keep me busy. Busy, is a thing i need right now, not stress. I need walking, running or anything that can divert my mind.

And during all these situations, the person i need most, is wayyyy busier. Who could blame him, he's at his peak. Envy, but happy for him. Too busy that we only talk for 81 sec. 81 freaking seconds! Per day! It is not even 2 mins! 40 seconds during lunch break, 41 seconds before he went to bed.

*sigh* again!

At this moment i am not so sure who i miss more, my fiance or the old me.

5 words

" SAYA. NAK. JUMPA. AWAK. ESOK." 

when my supervisor say these 5 words to me, i started to shiver and my heart beats super fast, obviously for no reason. it happened ALL THE TIME!

cuak!