Quote of Ted Mosby

Doesnt being scared let you know you are on something important?

 If you are not scared you are not taking a chance, and if you are not taking a chance then what are you doing?

Syukur Alhamdulillah

Terima kasih Ya Allah Kau telah beri apa yang aku perlukan selama ini. Syukur Alhamdulillah :)

hello august! Bridezilla here :p

 

hey, I just realized that today is the first day of august. august! a month before September. September! my wedding month! :O

 

Last week I went over to my wedding dress boutique, and guess what she said, I LOST WEIGHT! if that was not enough, she even said IM TOO SKINNY FOR MY DRESS. whattttt??? I don't know how to react because this is my second fitting, the first one it fit well and she did not do any alteration because it was too early (it was during May) but now my wedding dress have kembang or yeah maybe I have lost weight!. I guess all this wedding stress just shed my weight off, or thanks to my beloved Herbalife for the major re-shaping. Jealous much?? hahahaha..

 

 so I have to wait up until 1 week before my wedding for final fitting. hopefully i'll stay in shape. nahhhh, not to worry I have my Herbalife and I cant wait to run again after this fasting month. or else I might end up looking like this (pic below!) bahahahahaha...

 

 

 

 

 

Well, that's a relief, but I think im turning into a BRIDEZILLA! seriously! Too many things to handle too little time. I have always imagined managing wedding preparations are all sugars and rainbows. How deluded I was...rainbows?? how cute! teehee..

 

oh god, I wish I would not become like this during my wedding. Poor my bridesmaids..hehehehe...

I am getting married next month! somebody please slap the reality out of meeeeeeeeeee....

on your face! oh no, on my face! teeheeeee

Remember, how nervous and insane I am becoming? well, this pretty much explains it. and yeah, on my face! hahahahaha

 

 

King, I don't know if you read this, but if you are, just save your I-told-you-so speech to yourself ye..hik hik hik

The ugly truth

As you all know, im in my nervewreck-season. But today, fortunately it is reducing as i manage to keep myself super busy, and not to mention a super fun soothing body pampering session at the salon today. Love it! :)

Pick up my wedding card, make reservation for iftar, iftar with my girls and king at wong solo (im a crazy wong solo-nian) hahahaha..

Gossiping while sipping to our fav latte, oh life is perfect! I swear i almost forgot about my insane overthinking disease.

Nonetheless, when i got home, showered and ready to watch the apprentice asia ( which i love, and im on team jonathan), abah started to membebel. Damn! Dont you have other time to babble? And it came like bullets from m16 to me..dush dush dush dush!

Trust me, you dont want to hear my dad membebel. His words are sharper than sword! And you might want to know the content of his khutbah right? Well, it goes something like this : adik, kenapa asyik bgn lmbt? ( if only he knew i slept 2 hours before subuh at night reciting quran and doing istikharah just to calm me down), and thats why i woke up at 11 every morning. Yes, i am having insomnia, i guess.
  "Adik nanti dah kahwin, suami dah x tgk cantik ke x kite, dy tgk rajin ke x mngemas memasak semua"- well abah, guess who has been doing house chore all this while?? Maybe after i move out you'll noticed.

Bahahahahaha...

"Adik, abah risau betul tengok ramai sangat org becerai sekarang, senang sangat org bercerai. Adik kene pandai jaga rumah tangga"

KEBABOMMMMMMM! JACKPOT!!

He hit the center of my stress. Thank you. Now i cant sleep..hehehehehehe...

I miss you

So today is the 9th or 10th of ramadhan, sorry i lost count. I guess i lost track of everything. I guess i am lost! And it is only about 1 and half month before my wedding, and i am hitting my rock bottom!

*sigh*

People are expecting me to be super duper extremely happy right now. But sorry peeps, the glow just aint there yet.

Seriously, i cant focus, heck i cant do my thesis. But i am pushing my ass off to finish it. At least i have that to keep me busy. Busy, is a thing i need right now, not stress. I need walking, running or anything that can divert my mind.

And during all these situations, the person i need most, is wayyyy busier. Who could blame him, he's at his peak. Envy, but happy for him. Too busy that we only talk for 81 sec. 81 freaking seconds! Per day! It is not even 2 mins! 40 seconds during lunch break, 41 seconds before he went to bed.

*sigh* again!

At this moment i am not so sure who i miss more, my fiance or the old me.

5 words

" SAYA. NAK. JUMPA. AWAK. ESOK." 

when my supervisor say these 5 words to me, i started to shiver and my heart beats super fast, obviously for no reason. it happened ALL THE TIME!

cuak!